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Be Uncomfortable

If I continually did things that I was certain to finish, I would be unfulfilled because I wouldn’t be growing. I like the nervousness I feel when trying something new or facing an unfamiliar challenge.

I like having a big race hanging over my head. There are a few things that might happen; either I’ll push myself to new heights to be better prepared for the race, or when the race starts I will have to fight to sort it out as I go. Maybe both.

Either way I’m pushing to become a better person. If I fail, which happens a lot more than people like to believe, then I will learn from it. Where did things break down? Was it mental, physical, or was I short sited in something? Did I go into the race unprepared? Regardless, I will learn and grow.

I like that. I want to grow. I never want to settle for good enough. If I am successful, I like to take a moment to celebrate my accomplishment and then get right back at it, humbled. I have had people call me arrogant but I will be the first person to tell you that I’m not unique in my abilities or my drive. I am not special. My life has no more value than anyone else’s, I just want to get as much out of my life as possible, which might be the only difference. I want to look back on my life and tell the stories with the adventures sounding like the far-fetched dreams of a rambling mad man. If someone says that I am nuts for everything I am trying to achieve, then I’m getting where I need to be. I would much rather be outside the circle of normal and have people point me out as a person who has tried too many things and failed at all of them, than be one of the people that sit in the comfort being average and do the laughing.

I have DARE MIGHTY THINGS tattooed on my arm for a reason. It is a constant reminder to me that I would much rather be the laughing stock who tried to become everything possible with my life, than the person that gets to the end of my life and thinks “Fuck, I wish I had one more day.” Whenever the end of my life may come, I am ready for it. I am going balls to the wall right now chasing my dreams. The number of successes and failures I have is irrelevant. What matters to me is that I am going for it.

Dare mighty things.


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I am mentally lazy

I am a lazy piece of shit sometimes. If I look back at my failures I can assign one cause to almost all of them, and that’s my mental laziness.

I let the “I don’t want to” overcome my drive for success. I don’t want to be cold, I don’t want to wake up, I don’t want to take the pain anymore, I don’t want to look bad, I don’t want to what ever the fuck my excuse is. There have been a few times in my life when that voice has screamed in my head with everything it has got and I have overcome it. But not today my friend.

I know that it can be done. What I want is to make that repeatable at my will. Suffering and the voice urging me to quit are old friends of mine. I know that they’re lying to me to get me to take the comfortable route. I never want to be comfortable with where I am at, and I never want to be comfortable being average. I want my own personal greatness.

Just a few weeks ago, I had a 150 mile training ride to do. It was pouring rain and cold when I started. It continued on for six hours. More than a couple times, I started to talk myself out of staying the course and following my route. No one would know. I’ve been training hard and could use a recovery day… Blah blah bullshit, blah. I will also admit there were a couple times I stoppped. I stopped to be comfortable. Then I would remember, it can’t rain all of the time, all of this will end at some point, and if I want to be something great, I have to endure what brings me discomfort. If I want to be able to be proud of who and what I am, I have to embrace what makes me uncomfortable.

I have the American Trail Race coming up very soon. I’ve been training to make a race plan and have been making deals with myself. That is bullshit. I am going out there to learn about myself and see what I can do mentally and physically. I will sleep when I have to, not when I plan to. It will hurt. I will be sore and uncomfortable. That is fine. I just need to keep my damn head in the game. I want to dig a deep dark hole and be okay sitting in it until that storm passes.

As of right now, I can tell you that I am not where I want to be. I am not even close. If I ever get to where I want to be, it’s because I’m being lazy and settling for good enough. There is always more I can do, and I can always do better. I don’t want greatness, I want my own greatness. Mental laziness will only get in the way of that.

You want to know the good part of all this? Like I said, I can always do better. So can you.


 

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